Can't understand you if you leave nothing for us to try and understand.
Desperate for what? For understanding? Understanding what? Please give us some more details and someone out here can show you that they do at least try and understand.
If you don't tell us what it is we should understand then it is not possible for us to leave an honest opinion so give us more details and we will give you more honest answers.
I'm sorry, but I don't know anything about you to understand you. Give me a little insight and I might be able to form an opinion.
Honest opinion of what?
What do you need to know?