everybody wants wat they cant have
because, in your mind, there's zero chance of anything happening, which makes pursuing something safe. believe me, if you're still a virgin, i know the feeling of wanting to be in love first. it's obscenely overrated. you remember your first kiss forever. your first screw? not so much.
I'm the same way. It's likely a subconscious protection mechanism.
What's wrong with the girls you CAN have?