Why can't I just kill myself?
I want to die. I insanely want to die. I think about suicide all the time and have so many plans. I self harm and my body is covered in hundreds of scars, most earned in a period of a week. I'm 14 and I can't tell my mom because that would break her heart. I know if it didn't, it would too, but it's just so hard and it's a really stressful time. I also have tried to commit suicide a lot only to be stopped by me. This has just been getting worse and worse and I fear that some day I won't have to power to stop myself. Someday I'll just give up. But, I'm the weakest little thing in the world anyways, so I deserve to die.
I'm just so confused. What do I do? Help!!!!!!!!!!