Today after a long time of feeling down and having no interest in anything and anyone I had a sudden mood change: "I am happy and I was imagining that tomorrow I will do this and that and so many things and I will be allright while doing them enjoying myself and not focusing on my problems. So many things to do, but I wanted to do them perfectly and I couldn't wait. I wanted this positive feeling and mental state to last. I became obsessive. The worst is I felt kind of guiltt for being like this and I knew at that moment that it wouldn't last.