Why can't i relax around my partner...see details.
Smetimes i love him. Others i want him gone. We have had our ups and downs but I'm hopeful we will sort through them. But even when I'm 'loving him' i cannot relax. I am happier when he is not at home. And dread him coming home. When he is not here i can go about my daily business totally relaxed. Get my housework done, relax when i want and do my college work. When he comes home i turn into idle mode. Its hard to explain but for example if i was on my own and the adverts came on the tv i would get up and do something...check facebook, tidy up etc...but if he is here i just stare into space. I am like a different person and i just cannot feel completely comfortable. I will just sit on the couch like a zombie from the minute he gets home till we go to bed. And i am happy again when he goes to work and dread the weekends when he is off work because i cannot be myself. I don't understand why i am like this because i do love him and have never been happier with anyone, i don't even eat when he is here... I have no appetite. Its like a personality change. I am all bubbly with my friends or home alone but around him at home i just CANNOT RELAX. Whats wrong with me? :(