I thought you were.
You seem like a pretty negative person, but also sensitive and artistic. There is nothing wrong with you.
But if you really feel this bad, perhaps you could try volunteering at a homeless shelter or an animal shelter. When you're helping others, it's hard to feel worthless.
Funny quote about the subject, "“I notice that all of the people who support abortion are already born.”
― Ronald Reagan"
life is a gift, live spiritually, experience the reality, ..
Being aborted at the onset is better than struggling through life for several decades, only to die anyway.
There are never answers to the why questions in life. Best just to do your best with this life.
Because you were wanted?
Life sucks, doesn't it?