Are you self destructive or just blaming yourself for things out of your control.
Try arguing with My husband....I thought I ruined everything.
You don't mate, you only think you do - same as me.
Because you just do, there is a reason, what is in the heart is the outcome of what is going on around you, when your heart is sensitive to what is important to you, than your heart becomes insensitive and hard to other things, Deborah, p.s. Remember The Messiah who died on the cross understands this and Loves you, He is the only one who can change the heart, He did it for me, Now my heart right where it needs to be and life is much better, Bible John 3:16 and Romans 10:9 Blessings and Shalom,