I used to visit my family but it was just sitting there sipping tea whilst they carried on with what they were doing, chatting amongst themselves and not allowing me privy to any information about their lives (eg wouldnt tell me where their son was working, couldnt give me a day where i could take them out for a meal) Whispering to each other, right in front of me.<br />
Yes i know exactly how you feel, on the outside looking in, watching happy family life but never allowed to be a part of it. I never knew how dysfunctional my family were until i met other families. An eye opener and a great dissapointment.<br />
If you explained a bit more about your situation/family, i might be able to find an answer.<br />
Personally speaking, altho i come from a large family, i no longer have anything to do with them as they have never supported me in anything.
gosh, we are so alike. My mother was a narcissist which meant nothing would please her. 'why cant you be like your sister?' among other hurtful comments.
Jealousy, bigotry and greed all serve to hurt.
Hold on tight to your daughter, be careful not to let her spend too much time with your family, as they will turn your child against you, obviously they wouldnt have anything nice to say. Im so glad youve managed not to accept help, i accepted help from my mother and she abducted them 17years ago. If i were you i would get as far away as possible, find friends/partner, anyone but NOT family.
ps, you have your own little family now, if only i had moved away years ago i wouldnt be sitting here now typing and crying. my children werent expensive until they got spoiled rotten, then hated me for being poor.
Low self-esteem, probably.