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not usually without feeling self-conscious.
but last Thursday after my martial art class everyone left except one kung fu brother and my Sifu(which whom I am usually VERY self-conscious around). they were talking and I found myself just siting and listening to them talking and they occasionally looked at me and smiled and would here and there and would make a little joke at my expense lol...but throughout the time I was siting and felt so calm and relaxed(the class is from 6:30 to 9:30 pm)listening to their voices and not feeling self conscious and once in a while I would laugh or say something funny. but mostly I was so calm and content listening to their voices and tones then when they decided to go and I look at the clock and it was 12 at night...four freaking hours passed by how could that be.

how is it that I felt so calm just hearing their voices and enjoying not feeling shy or self conscious for once in my darn life lol am I weird or what? [Edit Details]
not usually without

because for the first time you were yourself... and listening to people that is around us is part of being ourselves...