Why do I have a problem with promiscuity?
By no means am I a prude. But for some reason when I think of a woman of 18 to even 28 having had been with 20, 30 or more guys. I get a sick feeling in my stomach and a tightness in my chest. I dont know why. I mean there are things that go through my head such as "If she were to have sex with me would it mean anything and we could have a relationship?" or "What kind of impact could I possibly make compared to the large number of guys shes been with?" another would be "Im not packing the biggest thing known to man but not the smallest. Would it feel good for her or even feel good for me?". I look for something real with someone. I love sex but with one person long term. I am a relationship kind of guy. I believe in romance and love and being faithful emotionally and physically to one woman who would choose me. I have been used for one night stands and it makes me feel hollow inside to the point where I would cave in physically. I havent had many women in my life and I have had five relationships. My longest being with my Ex wife of a little over 8 years total together. I just dont know why I feel this way about promiscuity. I dont see whats so fun about going out and hooking up with people randomly. Wouldnt you rather be with one person for as long as possible? To add to it for elaboration purposes, to me sex is sacred between two people. Its not something to play with. Its the ultimate bond between two people becoming one person. One mind, one body, one soul, one heartbeat in sync with each other. The ultimate trust. I feel emotionally discomforted knowing that thinking that I probably am not worth anything more to the girl than just a quick fix. When I want more when I know the heart I have. I have run into a few women here on EP that would have only wanted me to use them and leave which is why Im bringing this up. I hope Im not alone.