Maybe because even though they possibly dislike you, you want to love them.
They're also the reason that you're alive and the reason that you have a place to live. Try being grateful.
aren't you an angsty little woman haha. Life is only as good as your attitude. Never dwell on the negative and try to enjoy the little things in life. The fact that you're alive at all should be a miracle in your mind. Life is an experience.
No matter how much someone hurts us we still seem to care about them, sometimes it is just something we can not help, they are your parents and you love them and hope for a little love back, this doesn't always happen
Just because they are your parents doesn't mean you have to love them. Parents must earn your love and respect by treating you right,feeding you and caring for you etc
So you either have the capacity for unconditional love-which is like a blessing(or a curse) . Or you love them because we are told that they are the most important people in your life and you should love them, which is bul$hit.
well, I don't understand why you love them.
I think there is a natural instinct to love our parents. By the time we are wise enough to realize our parents aren't the best or even adequate it is too late the love is already taken hold. Hope that helps.
Don't worry...I'm in my forties and my hate for my parents (especially my father) has turned to apathy I just don't see them anymore.