I dont understand, you are going about things all wrong
because if its not the norm its considered outlandish. at least that's the way it is with the people around me
I have lost all inspiration and enthusiasm and have become complacent in my life.
It's human nature to think that what you're doing in your own life is perfect. Everyone wants to be as perfect as possible. And obviously everyone else can't control their own lives. With that being said, I hope that answers your question.