It bothers you now, because your unconscious mind recognises the opportunity to fill in the gaps that you missed out on..... join in, play, have fun, stomp your feet... let the adult go for a while, be a fun-loving, creative child.
That's what I did.
you can't look back on the past if it's going to hurt you. i can relate and i chose to just never to grow up and just have my childhood with my kids i try and give them what i would have wanted...experience and memories and love not material wise. i am trying to do the things i always wanted to do and just enjoy present and the past and future are out of my control
Maybe it is because you are now 40,you realize how time vanishes so quickly and it gets you to thinking about a lot of thing's...your childhood being one of those thing's.Keeping in mind that this is time that can not be replaced...there is nothing that can bring these years back,the positive in all of this is how successful you have become...focusing on what you have accomplished is the most important and you didn't need a childhood to do it.Also,just because your 40 doesn't mean there aren't any things you can't do now...try to think of some things you haven't done as a child and would like to do.Make a list if need be and do them now.
childhood is just a saying. the point is the time when u're having fun