Come on....We love you....maybe not in the way you want, but some of us still do and will more when we know you better.
Only you can do something about that. You want to be loved? Be loveable. You want to love someone? Well go out and find the right person. Nothing in life is easy - especially the things worth doing.
You make it sound like your life is over...and you are SO young....and you have SO much time to love and be loved. I think you are feeling lonely right now, and sorry for yourself....and you want the fairy tale right this minute.
If you stop dwelling on that, and just get out there and live your life...work, do things you enjoy....help other people...enjoy the world...you will naturally find your love...perhaps living and working right beside you.
PS...did you get your hair cut?
Be patient, you will attract your suitor
I understand how you feel and wish you happy thoights
yes your life has to be this way- love yourself and others will follow