you gotta figure out what you want the most
Detach yourself from mortal attachments and you'll achieve far greater desires above normalcy of humanity.
That is very wise.
Fast and Pray for a good amount of time, asking God to bring it all Together HIS WAY, and not some man-made idea. <><
Its the conflict of all humanity. Wants conflict with need in all aspects of our world. If we lived on a need basis only the world would be a much better place to live.