I here you!
Maybe because of the fact of you've always been admired. Like you stated in the monologue.
Missed a word being, 'Don't' .. In that case, I'm struggling with an answer. Low self esteem doesn't seem something you might have..
Will that's a life's obstacle course.. Not going to quote from 'Forrest Gump', But be patient.
You can see me in the bushs ??