sounds like you're just not happy with your marriage.
Are you playing with fire of fighting fire with fire. Both are dangerous.
Because you're confused. Probably selfish. And probably a wh0re. No clue..
It sounds like you are not happy with the relationship, if not why not leave and make yourself happy with someone who can make you happy??
Here is my opinion. You are lying to yourself of being happily married. Your problem is this. You are so addicted to this other man. You don't know how to break it off. Maybe he has a magical penis; who knows. But is he really worth it. I would end it ASAP. It's no fun getting caught.
aakksh trust me you will stop when you realize he is scum. Think about it. I once was stupid and dated a married man about to get a divorce. Come to find out. He dated his martial arts students. He even broke up other people's marriages in town.He even had a bad rep for dating peoples wives at the school. I was young at that time. These serial homewrecking people will ruin you also. You deserve better. Stop the affair ASAP.
Just friendly advice from a girl that made major mistakes in life.
Your just lucky! :-) lol