Why is it that any relationship i'm in(those sexual, friends, and family) it always seems to mean more to me than the
other person? i would do anything for those i love and the only thing i have ever wanted was to be loved and accepted. nothing i do is ever good enough/doesn't matter, i'm always wrong, anything that happens is my fault/i'm lying/ i should just get over it/pretend it never happened, and they look down on me in general. it makes me feel sick inside. my head always hurts and i feel like doing nothing but giving up. i used to be a pretty good person. no one is perfect, but i didn't do anything mean to anyone else. now all that has changed me. i find myself doing things i never thought i would. given most of the time i'm a pretty nice person, but i just feel anger and i wish sometimes everyone at least was able to fathom what it feels like just so they could understand what it is they are doing to me. i'm sorry for my wrongness. i plan on trying to change the bad i have done even though i know it'll never be the same. i just don't understand why people have to be that way at all.