It's like my reasoning goes away and I just want to hit them. They can tell I don't argue back and usually keep after me for fun.. but what they don't know is how violent my impulses are. How can I help myself not be this way? I cannot change them and their rudeness, disrespect and thoughtlessness towards me. I wish I could just tell them to stop and not feel guilty about telling them what to do. Or be afraid I will evoke even more of their nastiness.