Will stress from bullying kill me if I don't relax soon?
Normal BP is 110/50 but when I get slightly stressed out (all from bullying, 19 years old..still being bullied every single day almost.) it goes up to 140/90 and my heart can go up to 140. another bad sign is that I'm actually having nosebIeeds again and I'm TERRIFIED of them. so it really isn't helping because now i'm scared i'll bIeed to death or something. it was only a few dobs of bIood when i put tissuepaper there but I'm still really frightened. also heart problems run in my family i also have a slightly enlarged heart too.
also...instead of being depressed as in dark i'm turning manic as if i were on the upside of bipolar disorder ive had 3 mental breakdowns and 1 suicide attempt when i was 8 due to people. why can't people accept those who are different..my life has been mostly a misery. i can see myself getting to the point i get so stressed my veins just break then ill bIeed to death from a nosebIeed i was talking about
im not gonna mention how violent my fantasies have gotten recently. if i lived in america where parents have guns in the house i'd probably be in prison right now. but i prefer knives. its more personal.