Wait there until dawn. It will come and u will feel better.
Go here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jo%C3%A3o_Pessoa <br />
Put a nice bikini, lots of sunscreen and drink coconut water. The shadows and the darkness will be overwhelmed by the sun, the beach and the beautiful things. The only downside is that when you got back you where you came your heart will be shattered for being in paradise and not staying there.
If you think that you look funny using a bikini, wait till you see other people using it at the beach. Of course there are gorgeous girls around the beach with bikinis but they are the absolute minority.
Oh... Just now I saw that you're male. You're profile picture confused me. Anyway, you can put tongs instead of a bikini. Or nerd thighs. Whatever you please.
towords the light.
towards the light
underground for a bit of mayhem