I used to in my teen years. But not anymore.
I used to ponder if we were on a spec under a giants nail
It sounds like you are stuck in platos cave. If you arent familiar google it. It may help
I was being quite serious and was attempting to offer some material that could give you some insight *** into why you feel that way. If you had read platos allegory you'd know this
More like a nightmare for some.