My husband is bipolar and manic depressive as well as having anxiety issues. It is very hard most people tell me he's abusive and just leave but I can't I know inside he is a good person. People, even his family, dont understand depression.
I know what you mean. My husbands is normally under control but when something upsets him it is awful until he comes out of it. He gets hateful, gives silent treatment etc. I think lots of people say you control it in your head but you can't. Meds help I but only to a certain degree.
I think the best thing for you is to search through the groups on it. Then send out some pm's to introduce yourself. You also might write a story in one of the groups....people will usually chime in with their own.