Awakening

I moved out of my parent's house when I was 18, and directly into a place with my now ex-boyfriend. I began to drink heavily and even did drugs, and before I knew it, i was a full blown alcoholic/addict! I was raised Catholic my entire life, but chose to leave my life-long church when I was 18. I became so miserable and BROKEN, i had lost all touch with my Father God.  As if being seperated from God and being a total junkie weren't bad enough, my relationship began to unravel, slowly at first, then more quickly as time and my disease increased. I was living in complete and utter sin and felt angry at myself, and most of all, angry at God. It was 2 weeks before my 21st birthday when my relationship ended for good, i had to move home with my parents and was so broken hearted over my failed relationship, i was drinking constantly and barely making it through each day, I was at ROCK BOTTOM! By this time, my entire family (with the exception of my Grandmother[it is important to know that I come from a TOTALLY tight-knit Italian family-including all aunts and cousins] who still, to this day is Catholic) had left the Catholic church. This leaving greatly confused me, and my family begged me for a very long time to attend the new church (Pentecostal) they were going to. I put them off for a long time, until i came to the realization that i was UNABLE to handle my life on my own, i eventually (In God's time) broke down and went. I was FLOORED! I realized that 18 years in my Catholic church had not even begun to teach me who Jesus Christ was!! Long story short, i was saved on January 28th, 2007! Amazing. I will not say that it has always been easy, there are many times that come to mind when i made the wrong choices, but all in all, I am a BRAND NEW CREATURE IN CHRIST! Praise Jesus for the work He has done in me and in my life. I am forever amazed how things just "fall into place" for the righteous. Halleluja!

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2 Responses Oct 31, 2009

Glory to Jesus! Hold on to your faith sister! Never look back=)

Love is the key that goes beyond the natural minds when it comes to knowing God.<br />
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I have a faith, hope and love so strong that I just live within many storms while never charging God foolishly just as Job.<br />
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"That ye might walk worthy of the Lord unto all pleasing, being fruitful in every good work, and increasing in the knowledge of God; Strengthened with all might, according to His glorious power, unto all patience and longsuffering with joyfulness.<br />
Colossians 1:10-11<br />
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When the life of any individual becomes so deeply devoted to Go it becomes something so spiritual that only they themselves can understand, along with that comes the words of our Lord Jesus Christ that become nothing but true living experiences making His words truth just become a living reality exactly as written.<br />
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“If ye were of the world, the world would love his own; but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you. John 15:19<br />
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When God has become our heartbeat with His words as our needed blood-flow for life that has been a twenty year process which is just at the start of maturity with strong meats that people just don’t want to hear or believe, Christ adds these words.<br />
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“Remember the word that I said unto you. The servant is not greater than his lord. If they have persecuted me, they will also persecute you; if they have kept my saying, they will keep yours also. Verse 20<br />
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What we have now is the many who will not hear in Matthew 7:13, Hebrews 5:13 and 1 Corinthians 2:14; and the few who will in Matthew 7:14, Hebrews 5:14 and 1 Corinthians 2:13.<br />
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God placed me within a life of daily struggles almost four years ago and became my only teacher of truths through His words and through experiences; and in this day there is no true and genuine love to be found within the buildings of man with false doctrines, traditions and spirits because God said that this whole world would be deceived in Revelation 12:9; and God is not the author of confusion. 1 Corinthians 14:33, but man has always been nothing but confusion. Jeremiah 3:25<br />
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Therefore man believes not the words of God, so hates, detests and persecutes those who live for God and deliver what only few may hear, and God is giving them all a final warning in Proverbs 1:22-32 that they refuse to hear as the many, when only the few will become apart of verse 33. <br />
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My Intelligence <br />
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So far my education began twenty years ago, but Moses has eighty years of life's education prior to his 40 years of leading Israel in the wilderness, so just to reach his level of knowledge will take me another 60 years; and then I need another 40 of hands on experience with a rebellious people just as this world today. So says God, but who believes our creator for His every word? Most certainly not the religions of man that believe what man falsely teaches as the blind leading the blind with no love in their hearts for others that God looks for; and He weighs us all by our actions. 1 Samuel 2:3<br />
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Please read The Bottom Line because its all about the love that God expects from us all.<br />
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