I Am Still Here, God Loves You (and You Too)!!

This is the letter of forgiveness I have been looking to write for a long,long time!!
Dear X,

I forgive you with all of my heart.  God has taught me to let go of your throat and place my life in His hands.  Maybe it sounds trite to you, but in order to take my fate from you, I have ripped myself away from your laughing torment and given myself over to someone who loves me.  Maybe you think those nights you left horrible messages on my cell phone, you thought you'd cause me to end my life, or maybe you were being juvenile and immature. Whatever!!  But, this you didn't know: I wasn't alone: my family was there to listen to me cry and God showed me what choices I had.  I could continue to emotionally self-mutilate myself by trying to win you back and trying to hurt you back, or I could grow up and become the woman He wants me to be.  I see you now: you are demon-ridden, and I truly feel for you.  I pray for you like noone has ever prayed and ever will!! I want God to redeem you and Jesus to turn your heart from the torment you are in.  I do not want to be oppressed by your demons, and I love God, my family, my friends, and myself.  I look in the mirror and see the love He put into His creation shining back.  I am not perfect by any means, but God loves the mess He made.  I believe He loves you too, and I hope one day you feel it.  I let go of the anger, fear, and hate I had for you, and live my life in the belief that I am worthy of good things, because I feel the goodness of the people I care about and who care about me.  This life is not about conquests and oneupmanship.  In order to love God and yourself, you must let go of worldly values and see the true gifts bestowed to you: hope, faith, and love.  I want to add forgiveness to the gifts, no matter what someone says or does, forgiveness is the gift you give them and yourself.  Turn the other cheek, smile, and walk away.  Forgiveness does not mean forgetting.  Don't be a fool twice. Forgive, love, and walk away.  I hope these lessons come to you one day, and you remember me, because that is what I did for you.

With Love and Forgiveness,

sylplath2 sylplath2
36-40, F
Aug 13, 2011