Yes, I may have survived but I am not the same. I probably never will be. If you think that psychological damage from bullying is a myth, I am proof that it is not. The damage is very real.
The things people (including teachers) said to me were told to me when I was very young so I believed it. I went on believing it, even now I still do. I believe that I am a demon child and that I deserve to be punished. I even believe that I deserved to be treated like crap. Yesterday, I wrote a letter to some bullies from awhile back who told me that my life was not worth living. In that letter I specifically told them how to kill me and get rid of my remains. Now whenever I blink or close my eyes all I can see is how I imagine my life ending. When I am in high places I look down and imagine how painful it would really be if I hit the ground or the powerful rushing of the murky water. I wonder if it would be more painful than life itself.
TheIceDragonReturns TheIceDragonReturns
18-21
1 Response May 27, 2014

I had similar experiences at my junior school, just as I was doing well, one teacher made it his business to pick on me in class and to make sarcastic comments to me. These were made in front of all the other children, so he was giving them permission to attack me as well. Looking back I can still feel that sinking feeling in my stomach, when his hostility hit me.