I Feel Like I Messed Up

Long story short meet bf in high school and started to date while he was home on leave .He finally came home after 2 years after being station over sea and the deployment .Anyways for the past 2 years all he talk about how he cant wait to marry me and ask me to marry him .The other day we went to the jewelry store to look at wedding rings for the future .All he been asking is what color diamond I like because he wanted to buy me diamond earrings but my brother said he wanted to ask me to marry him but my brother do lye but don't know what to believe .Yesterday we kind of had a fight .I was upset that he always leaving and didn't want to tell him and it was the fact he bought me in to look at wedding rings for the future .We did talk about it throw the Internet and he told me I should just told him I wanted to talk about it later and not now .He say he has to get use to the real me and don't deny there a promble .He did say we are fine but why do I still feel guilty why do I feel that it mess up being together in the future with our planes .Whats going on ?
kellner27 kellner27
18-21, F
Sep 12, 2012