Just ReadYesterday I felt great and today I feel horrible. It's hard pretending that everything is ok when it's not. And this is some lonely **** for real. I just need for someone who doesn't know me to just listen.
I don't even know where to start I guess why I'm so upset today is because I got really excited for this job and the guy just...didn't even listen to me. He kept ******* talking and talking asking why my jobs were so short and I tell him I was homeless and he keeps talking and talking and it only makes e feel worse.
I'm 21 and i feel the stress of someone in thier 40's. My eyes seen to much, my heart been frozen to much. It's weird I find comfort in the voices I hear in my head. Not harmful voices but they talk to me because I don't have anyone else to talk to.
I didn't want to die...I haven't in a while but now It seems like the best thing.
I don't even know what to write...
I'm so patheic.
People always say you have all of this potential THEN WHERE THE **** IS IT YOU STUPID *****.
Where's my silver lining?
Only in death, dummy, only in death
mizlonely 18-21, F 0 Mar 2, 2011