The Magic Pacifier
The Magic Pacifier
Tyler was six years old but he didn't feel like he was that old or that he wanted to be that old. Something was missing; something made him feel that he wanted to be a little boy again. He didn't know why, he just knew. The only problem was he didn't know how. Tyler enjoyed the toys and the games that the other boys no longer played with and that his mother said he should be giving up since he was becoming a big boy just like the others. But he never wanted to give them up and found time to play with them when he was alone. More and more he seemed to be happiest when he was alone and allowed to be the little boy he still was inside. But he was not happy. Something was still missing. He needed to find a way to really be that little boy and to show his parents and his friends that this was who he was and that he was happiest when he could be this way. But he couldn't find a way and so one day when he was really, really upset about it, he went to his favorite place to cry. Alone in the little tree house in the yard behind his home he was always safe. Nobody could ever see him or hear him cry when he was there. And nobody could tell him differently when he chose to play with his toys or cuddle with his favorite teddy. Today, though, there was little joy in playing in the tree house so Tyler just curled up in the corner and cried softly to himself while trying to seek comfort in the softness of his teddy that he held close to his cheek. "Hi there little boy!" Tyler had drifted off to sleep but rose quickly out of fear of what he just heard. Confused and bewildered, he tried to find the source of the sound and hoped that he had only imagined it. "Don't be afraid. I am here to help you be the little boy nobody else will let you be." Standing at the entrance to the tree house Tyler saw the source of the voice. Standing before him was a magic wizard, a boy just like Tyler only a little smaller and a little younger. And with some sort of special powers that Tyler did not yet understand. His fear was quickly easing, however, as the magic presence of the boy wizard made Tyler feel magically safe and comfortable. "I've been listening to your dreams at night about how much you want to be a little boy again and how your parents don't understand. I like being a little boy too and can help other boys be the little kid they wish they were." Tyler somehow instantly had complete trust in the wizard and was ready to feel the magic that he possessed. He was much too excited about realizing his dream to question what was happening. "How will you do that?", he asked with great hope. "Simple", the wizard replied. "I'll just give you what you have been missing." And with that he slowly pulled out a small, white pacifier with a big, soft, golden nipple from his pocket and reached out his hand for Tyler to take it. "When you were a baby, your mom and dad eagerly offered you a pacifier whenever you cried or felt tired or sad. They were happy when you took it and loved watching the pleasure in your eyes as you lovingly suckled on the nipple and gained so much pleasure and security from it. But one day they decided that you were too big to have one anymore. They thought they had to make you be a big boy and that big boys don't suck pacifiers. So they took it away and thought they had done the right thing and that you would be happy without it. They need to learn what I know, and what you know but haven't figured out yet: they need to see that you still want your pacifier, still like it and can still have it today even if you are six years old. And this is a very special pacifier made just for bigger boys like you. It has a nipple big enough to fill your mouth and give you all the special pleasures you deserve." Tyler stood silently watching and listening, unable to respond to what was happening. He just knew, somehow, that what was happening was magical and that he did not want to stop it. He had never seen a nipple so big and quickly realized that he wanted to feel this special nipple in his mouth. He reached out his hand and took the pacifier from the wizard and slowly, cautiously raised the nipple towards his lips. It seemed to take forever as though he were in a trance. Slow not out of fear but as though in a pleasant dream trying to savor the joy of the moment. Finally the soft, round nipple was on his tongue and he felt his lips close over it. "The nipple is magic and you will soon feel the power released from within you." Tyler heard the wizard's words but did not listen as the nipple collapsed as he sucked it eagerly further into his mouth and only the sheer pleasure and wonderful sensations of this moment were important. Whatever else this magic nipple could bring was of little interest now. Tyler quickly discovered what those powers were however. As soon as he had placed the nipple to his tongue he felt a surge of tension leave his body; his eyes slowly closed and his small, soft body gently curled up on the blanket he kept with him in the tree house and he was soon fast asleep. With the gentle, soothing sucking on the nipple, Tyler was able to drift into the most pleasant, most comforting, most enjoyable sleep he had had in a long, long time. Tyler woke with a jolt as the soothing image he had been enjoying suddenly shattered and the reality of the world around him quickly recaptured his senses. His mind began to race: had it all been a dream only to be cruelly stolen away now that he was awake? Soon, though, his body began to catch up to his racing, hysterical mind and he realized that the pacifier was still in his mouth and that he was still sucking. He was also now beginning to realize another, stronger sensation: he was wet all over! Tyler's heart stopped. He had wet his pants!! Tears began surging in his eyes; his little body began to quiver; he stopped sucking on the pacifier. Sniffling slowly and softly to himself he began to look for the little boy wizard he had seen a short time ago but could not find him. Tyler could do nothing now but cry hysterically. He could not talk, he could not comfort himself and he could not seek out the comfort he needed. All he could do was cry and hope that somebody would come to care for him. "Well, well", the wizard said softly as he reappeared and sat down next to Tyler. "I guess you really do want to be a little boy more than I or you even imagined." Tyler slowed his crying in response to the presence of the wizard. He was happy to see him and to know that he was no longer alone. "When you sleep with your magic pacifier you will become the little baby that is crying within you", the wizard told Tyler in a soft, reassuring, accepting voice. "This is what you want and need and sucking this special nipple makes it all possible. What you need to do is be protected just like any baby would." And with that the wizard lovingly removed Tyler's wet pants and in its place secured a nice, soft diaper so that next time Tyler wanted to be a baby he would be safe in his diapers and not be in a miserable wet bed. Tyler felt so happy and safe in his new diaper and was now joyfully sucking his new pacifier again. "Remember, you are only a little boy when you sleep with the magic pacifier. The rest of the day you will be the big boy everyone else wants you to be." And with that the wizard was gone. Tyler was glad that he wouldn't need the diapers all the time since he did like being a big boy sometimes, but he also wondered if the magic pacifier could help him with his mommy and daddy. Didn't the wizard say that his parents had to learn about his needs for the pacifier? He wondered how he could do that without also having to have diapers all the time. He also wondered if he would sometimes want the pacifier in the daytime too. That night in bed Tyler was very cold and uncomfortable. He missed his new pacifier since he was too afraid to take it out of the tree house but he also couldn't stop thinking about it and longing for its pleasures. The night continued to make him colder and colder and before long a loud, scary storm was battering down on his room and making his bed and heart shake in fear. But again he found himself unable to seek out the comfort he needed. He could only curl up in his bed to try to make himself smaller and smaller and hope that the scary noises would not find him. Soon he began to cry as the fear overwhelmed him and his impotence crippled him. He felt himself moving awkwardly and strangely and began to cry out louder and louder as the mysterious feelings and images played crueler and crueler games on his mind. Suddenly Tyler felt the presence of a warm body near his and then the soft touch of something pressing against his lips. Still not fully awake, Tyler instinctively reached out his tongue for the ob
ject and soon he felt it slide right in like it was always meant to be there. With a jolt Tyler knew what he had! Someone just gave him a pacifier and he was sucking eagerly on the sweet, soft nipple. But how? Why? Was it a dream? He still wasn't sure exactly what was happening. Where was the wizard? Just then he felt a gentle hand reach under him and slowly pull him up. There was the sound of a soft, reassuring voice as he felt the smooth, warm skin of his mommy's cheek rub against his and the soothing pat on the back of a loving hand. Tyler just let it all happen; he was too engrossed in the pleasures of the moment to ever fully wake up or try to figure out what was happening. All he knew, all he cared about, was the pleasure and security in the moment and did not need anything else. He closed his eyes and rested his head against his mommy's shoulder as she slowly rocked him back and forth and softly whispered a pleasing lullaby into his tiny ear. The emotional release was intense for little Tyler. He felt an even stronger rush than he had when he had taken his first suck of that new nipple the wizard offered not long ago. He felt the tension, fear and insecurity leave his small body and a feeling of freedom and joy take its place. And with that, Tyler, without even being aware, allowed his bladder to release its control and he felt the warm, wet sensation of...WAIT! Suddenly Tyler was more aware of what was happening. Yes, he was sucking the magic pacifier, but neither he nor the wizard had put him in a diaper! Concern rushed through him but he quickly learned that he had nothing to fear. His pants weren't wet! Now it was beginning to make sense: mommy had come in and put a diaper on him as he slept! The strange movements he dreamt about were actually mommy pinning a diaper between his legs! But how did she know? Tyler tried to speak. "Shh", mommy softly replied. "Your new friend told me all about it and I want to do everything I can to make you feel happy as the little boy you want to be. The wizard told me what you want and about the magic pacifier. He gave it to me tonight and told me you were having trouble without it. He also told me that you would need the diaper when I put the pacifier in your mouth." Tyler's mom understood the message the wizard had given her and loved her little boy so much in response to it. She felt sorry that she had taken the pacifier away and was so happy to be able to give it back. Tyler's father and older sister also heard the wizard's story and were happy to be able to help Tyler be the boy he wanted to be. Before long Tyler was able to have his pacifier whenever he wanted it. His home became his sanctuary and the pacifier his trusted friend. Everyone in his family loved him and accepted him as he was and took pleasure in being able to offer Tyler his pacifier whenever he needed it. And Tyler was especially happy when the wizard was able to give him the pacifier without it always making him be a baby that would wet his pants. They made a deal that only at night would the pacifier make him wet his diapers. And both mom and dad accepted this deal too and loved Tyler for it and gave him the nurturing and caring he needed to put on his diaper and change it in the morning. And Tyler was happy that he could take his pacifier anytime he wanted it, with or without diapers. For a long time Tyler was very, very happy. He could be the little boy he desperately needed to be with his family; he could still seek the quiet comfort of the tree house alone or with the safety and friendship of the wizard. And when he wanted, he could be the six year-old boy with his friends and play just like all the other boys without them knowing anything about his magic pacifier. But Tyler's happiness didn't last long. In spite of all the pleasures he now had and the safety and security he gained from being little, he still felt something was missing. He had nobody like him to share it with. He wanted another boy like him to play with. A boy, not a wizard, sister, or parent. And not one of the neighborhood boys who he already played big boy games with. Tyler wanted a new boy just like him to play with. So Tyler went to the tree house in hopes that the wizard could grant him another wish. If the wizard could read his dreams and bring him the pacifier and then the love of his family that were the keys to being a little boy, surely the wizard could also bring him a playmate to share this with! No sooner had he run all these thoughts through his mind than the wizard appeared. "You need a friend like you, don't you Tyler?" he asked in his usual soft, comforting voice that made Tyler feel so safe. Tyler was clutching his teddy tightly to his chest and sucking hard. He slowly pulled the nipple from his mouth and haltingly said, "yes". He then quickly put the nipple back in and from the intensity of Tyler's sucking the wizard knew he had to help. "Little boys like us are lucky," the wizard began, "because we know what we want and have been able to get it." As the wizard spoke, Tyler suddenly noticed that he too had a pacifier! He didn't just give one to Tyler, but had one for himself as well! "We like sucking and being a little boy and many other older boys just like you feel the same way but haven't been helped out like I have helped you. There is another boy near you who wants to be just like you and you need to tell him he can be." And with that the wizard pulled out another new pacifier just like the one he had given Tyler that wonderful day not long ago. "Take this magic pacifier and offer it to that scared, lost little boy who is just like you and he too will soon be happy and safe and will be able to play with you and be the friend that both of you need." And before Tyler could ask any questions the wizard was gone. Tyler was left holding the new pacifier and wondering how he was going to know which boy to give it to. The next morning Tyler's dad came in to wake him up and as the two of them changed the wet diaper together, Tyler learned that some new friends were coming over that day and that they were bringing a little boy with them that Tyler could play with. Tyler couldn't believe it! His whole body went limp as he became engrossed in what he had just heard. This must be what the wizard was talking about! Tyler could think of nothing else and found himself sucking harder than he ever had before in anticipation of meeting this new boy. And in the excitement of the moment he just let dad address all his diaper needs which his father was more than happy to do. The hours couldn't pass fast enough as Tyler awaited the arrival of his new friend. He rehearsed what he was going to do and how but was still unsure of himself. He couldn't imagine telling another six year-old boy about pacifiers. Tyler was so lost in his thoughts that he didn't notice the new family arrive. He just heard his father yell from the floor below that the new boy was here and that he was sending him up to Tyler's room. Tyler's heart started to race as he frantically tried to decide what to do. He quickly grabbed both pacifiers and leaped onto the bed. Just then there was a knock on the door and Tyler invited the boy in. And almost immediately, Tyler knew he wasn't going to need a plan. "My name's Jimmy", the new boy said as he stood in the doorway. Tyler looked up and saw a small, skinny looking boy who appeared much younger than he was. This is definitely the one, he thought to himself. "I'm Tyler", he said as the boy closed the door behind him. Before he could say another word, Tyler noticed that Jimmy's eyes were wide open with excitement as they scanned his room. "WOW!" Jimmy exclaimed as he frantically circled the room examining all of Tyler's toys. "This is so neat! You still have all these great toys! I stopped playing with these when I was little." Tyler couldn't believe it! The power of the wizard's magic was clear to him now. Jimmy was here to be Tyler's friend as a little boy just like him. "I like all these toys", Tyler began, "'cause it's more fun than big kid toys." "You're so lucky. My mom wont let me keep my old toys since she says I need to be like big kids. I don't wanna be like big kids!" Tyler saw his chance: "You want to go someplace special were only kids like us can go?" "Yeah!" Jimmy screamed his approval and both boys went running towards the tree house. Tyler ran very quickly to try to stay ahead of Jimmy and to keep him from seeing what he was doing. By the time Jimmy reached the top of the tree house, Tyler was already sitting on the blanket and had pulled out the pacifier that was in his pocket. When Jimmy looked through the entrance he saw Tyler happily sucking his pacifier. "What's that?!" Jimmy asked in shock. Tyler just reached into his pocket for the new one the wizard gave him and held it out to Jimmy. Pulling his out of his mouth, he said, "Try it. You'll like it." That was all he had to say. Jimmy took the pacifier and slowly placed it in this mouth just as Tyler had done with the wizard. And as soon as Jimmy started sucking he was down on the blanket asleep with his bladder releasing into his pants. Tyler just watched it excited and amazed and before long he too felt his pants getting warm and wet. Now both boys found themselves alone with a pacifier in his mouth and wet pants between his legs. When they were both awake again they found that the wizard had left them dry pants and a diaper which they eagerly put on. They were both fully under the wizard's magic spell and very happy for it. They laughed and played the rest of the day alone in the tree house joyfully sucking the pacifier they each had been given and willingly wetting the new diapers the wizard had provided. When it came time to leave, Tyler and Jimmy decided to take the pacifiers with them. The two boys greeted Jimmy's parents with wide grins punctuated by a nipple in the middle. They quickly looked for a reaction. Tyler's parents were there too and the boys knew that they would love what they saw, but they didn't know what Jimmy's mom and dad would say. Jimmy's dad bent down and picked his son up by the waist and holding the boy at eye level he told Jimmy that the wizard had visited them while he was playing with Tyler. His dad told him he understood everything that Jimmy wanted and was happy to let him have it. With that he kissed the back of the pacifier that surrounded Jimmy's lips and Jimmy reached his arms around his daddy's neck and squeezed him tight. And as he did he felt his pants getting warm and wet. That night the boys slept together at Tyler's house where they shared the enjoyment of their pacifiers and the loving comfort of Tyler's mom and dad. And over the next few days the two boys spent all their time together sharing their friendship and love for the little boy they each had inside them. And their love and trust became so strong that they soon let other boys see what they were doing and rather than respond with nasty comments the other boys wanted to know how they too could join in the fun that so far only Tyler and Jimmy knew. Tyler and Jimmy quickly became the heroes to all the boys in the neighborhood who wanted to be little but didn't know how. And the pacifier that had once been just the secret of the tree house soon became the symbol for all the boys who wanted to be big and strong but also little and nurtured. And happily, the wizard who had made Tyler so happy had enough magic within him to make all the other little boys just as happy and to help all the parents see the love and the happiness they could give their little boy simply by nurturing this need. Tyler closed his eyes as he drifted off to sleep feeling only the pleasant sensations of the nipple in his mouth; the taste, texture, feel and rhythmic sucking made him happy and he was soon fast asleep and dreaming about helping other kids know the pleasure and fun that he knew in being a little boy with a pacifier.