You're The Strongest One Here

Browsing through my thoughts.
Tears start to fall
You're fading away
I get scared.
It hurts.
I get angry.
And so, I slap and puch myself in the face.
Scratch my face till I see blood.
I need more.
So I find my precious razor
My old friend.
It stains, but it feels good.
When it's over I lie quietly on the floor.
I cry once more.
I wonder how you can survive being with a girl like me.
An emotional wreck.
Is it love? Do you care that much?
I never want to lose you
I know I have problems, I face them every day
I try to help myself.
I'll do anything for you
Because I know I truely love you.