Heavenly Flower47

I've been in emotionally and physically abusive relationships practically all of my life and I'm 47. I just ended the latest one because he has blacked my eyes and generally beat the brakes off me. On top of that he lies and cheats compulsively. I allowed him and his homeless friend to move in with me because I had lost my job, found out that I had a chronic disease that was life threatening, was going thru a divorce where my ex left me with piles of debt and was going into foreclosure and so I really needed the money. I was going thru the lowest period of my life and suffering like hell. Finally I woke up and got them both out of my house. I got on my knees and prayed for God to give me the strength to survive and to stay away from this man. I asked God for healing and changed my thinking and now I pray that I can love myself enough not to ever let another man abuse me. I'm still hurting, but time heals all wounds. I just want to share with everyone that "This too Shall Pass". I start a new job tomorrow - Praise God!!!!!
Heavenlyflower47 Heavenlyflower47
3 Responses May 20, 2012

I am girl speaking here and only interested in men. I don't agree with homosexuality and bisexual, so please do not talk to me about it. I met this great guy online. We were talking every day. One day, I didn't trust him and I do not trust any man, except the men in my family. I have guys looks at women and tell me about it. One day I was like I don't know if he cheating or not because he has not contacted me in two days. I messaged all of his friends on his Facebook. I didn't know he had a child because he was not ready to tell me that, but I got pictures of his child on his shoulder a year ago on Christmas, but I ignore it. Then I found his exgirlfriend's mom on Facebook and she came after me saying they were married, but it was not true. She blocked me. She was a crazy lady. Then her brother was saying they live together, but he confessed and said they do not live together, but he made me mad. The exgirlfriend's brother's fiance attacked me saying he was worthless, druggy and then she confessed she did not know him at all. They lived together for seven years, but her family told me that they never met him, so what is that about. She would run off with his child and go see her family, but he did not know about it. He told me right away that he lived with her seven years. I helped him with the break up. He was taking to long, so I was fooling around with other guys because I wanted the pain to go away because I didn't think he loved anymore. I lived with a guy, that hit me in the stomach with his children around, he hit me in the arms twice, he corned me in closets to threaten me, he was always cheating on me and my abusive exboyfriend has a restraining order him and I did it to him too. I always had night mares of my abusive exboyfriend putting his hands on my throat and mouth to hush up and he really did that to me. The boyfriend I have now was calling my grandma to see where I was at. He messaged me to see if I was ok. My abusive exboyfriend knew I didn't love him of course not because he beat me. My boyfriend now lightened up my world by sending me sweet things. I flew to see him and everything was perfect. I truly know he cares about me because he still wants me after I was with my abusive exboyfriend. He missed voice, so he was listening to my voice messages. I just really love him. He told me he loves me first. I am glad I dated other guys to get that experience out of the way, but he was not ready to be with me because he was trying to get over his exgirlfriend at the time. I am so happy he said I helped him get over his exgirlfriend. I will give you more details later on.

Add me and see how my exboyfriend abused me and I got through it.

good for you! at least you have the strength to take action...alotd of people getr beet down to where they are truly helpless....

I think I posted to your story. Are you the one with the crazy, alcoholic wife? I don't mean any harm, but please find the strength to get out of that mess. The man who was abusing me was also an alcoholic like I mentioned. They will mess your life up if you let them. Do not be a codependent and don't let her intimidate with threats about getting your kids. That's how my husband kept me in an emotionally abusive marriage for 15 years. You have more rights than you think. Plan your exit right now and spring it on her by surprise so she doesn't have time to plan her next sick move. I would love to see her face when she looks around and you are no longer there for her to abuse. Im now free and intend on staying that way. LOL