My Emotionally Abusive Relationship

Hi, I'm sarah and I am in an emotionally abusive relationship. I have been with my other half for 4 years now, and have 2 kids with him. Tbe abuse started around 3 years ago after my first child was born, as time has gone on it has got worse and worse. Everything I enjoy doing he puts down. Makes me feel bad and guilty for doing it. He has made threats to hurt and kill me, weather I was to stay with him or leave. I feel trapped and increasingly depressed with situation. I have had suicidle thoughts, felt like this would be my only escape, its horrible but I cant leave, he has threatened to use my children against me, in which case my life wouldnt be worth living anyway, but if I stay in this relationship, I think it will push my kids away and they will hate me for it when i'm older. I feel so trapped, and it is so difficult. I would love to speak to people in my situation, for support or just a listening ear. This is my story, thanks for reading.
Happydoo Happydoo
22-25, F
Dec 8, 2012