My Heart Is Aching - a Story About My Dog Gus
I need some help from those of you who've also killed their family pet by accident. I have (had) three dogs all rescued from the humane society. I love each and every one of them with all of my heart. This week, I took them for a ride in the car to drop off my son. When I returned to my home, I somehow was distracted - still not sure how or why, but two of the dogs got out of the car and poor Gus was left in the car. Unfortunately it was 95 degrees. Several hours later, when my husband returned home from work, he asked me where Gus was. I said I think he's got to be here somewhere...all of a sudden I thought "oh God, please don't tell me I left him in the car". When I ran out to see, he was slumped in the biggest pile of druel and puke I'd ever seen in my Black, HOT car. I roasted my poor buddy to death. I am SO distraught and griefsticken,not to mention the extreme guilt, that I don't know how to cope. It was so unintential and I know it's happened to other people. I am so mad at myself for not noticing. I feel SO sad that he suffered so much and he was so helpless!!! This also was my little boy"s special dog that he picked out. Any support is welcome as I feel I will need trauma counseling for this. I have lived a life without regret for 40 years, ,but this I regret more than anything I've ever done.