Shallow

It's extremely shallow and stupid, and I hate myself for even joining this group, but I promised myself I would be 100% honest on EP. And so there it is: I wish I was pretty.

I don't even place looks very high on my priority list when meeting other people. I don't like the way fashion models look, and I actually prefer bigger women. But for some reason I feel worthless in society's eyes because I am not beautiful and I am not a size 2.

It's a struggle to have the two opposing opinions within my one mind, but that's just how it is.

SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit
36-40, F
6 Responses Mar 7, 2010

Update:<br />
I have decided that I cannot surround myself with negativity and expect to be ok. I have deleted all negative experiences from my profile (though the stories still remain) and I am only allowing myself to speak kindly to my inner self, and rise above the negative aspects of my past. It is working already. I feel better than I ever have because now I love myself. I hope that all of you who feel the way I used to feel find your happiness as well.<br />
*hugs*

Well then you are doing yourself and society a grave injustice in feeling worthless and un-attractive. No-one is worthless are you ARE an atrractive lady, just be careful if you ever find yourself in Cornwall coz i'll looking for ya! x

Thanks for the comments, everybody, they made my day. :)<br />
It is me in the picture. I don't believe in using someone else's picture.

So, is the picture of someone else? Coz if thaz you then what are you thinking??? A females looks are important to me, i couldn't go out with a munter no matter how lovely a person she was not that i'm Bradd or Beckham, you understand (If i were a puddle an ant couldn't drown in me, i'm that shallow!) but assuming that photo is of you then i find you very attractive. You've got a nice smile and the look of a lady who would be a whole lot of fun to be out with. I dunno (and neither expect to be told) where you live but if it was around here you'd have caught my eye by now!

Alana, I don't think you are stupid at all.<br />
As for being pretty, beauty is only skin deep,<br />
while you are beautihull to the bone.

But your avatar looks pretty! I want to feel pretty, too, but mostly I don't give it much thought. I really worried about it when I was a kid. I'm glad that's not the case anymore.