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I Act Older Than My Age

I'M Too Young To Feel Old -_-

By: ThinkBlissful
Written on January 27th, 2013
Well I'm 14 years old and to be honest I feel OLD! "Why would you feel like that?", "Psh, what are you talking about girl! You don't know what it's like to feel old" says all the older people I've tried telling this to. For starters, I can't get along with anyone my age. I noticed that teens usually like to be playful do foolish things, and talk about random nonsense which I cannot stand. I like having meaningful conversations with other people and have never been able to "Let loose and have fun". There's another thing I haven't mentioned, it's possibly because I have(and still do) suffer from social anxiety.

Believe it or not there are physical effects that come with this disorder, the main one–the reason I can't just let loose–is my stiffness(it only starts when I'm outside of my house) . It effects my walking, standing and posture in general, I cannot dance because of this or jump around in public or even something(it may sound silly) as simple as eating in front of someone/in public. Even the stiffness in itself is a reason I feel old! >_< Other than that I just can't have fun!

I'm a boring person and I love reading, writing, listening to music and thinking. If I died today I could safely say my life was pointless! I'm living like an elderly person except I've never had a life/childhood with purpose but I digress.


If I could state an age that I resemble it would have to be somewhere in the range of 40-60.....But even in those ranges, people are in a better state of well being than me.
By: ThinkBlissful
Age: 13-15 , Female
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  • AnnaLastName
    AnnaLastName

    I used to feel like that when I was a teenager. That was a long time ago. No matter what age you are and what interests you have, all you need to remember is that you count and that you are important. One way to appreciate your own importance and quirkiness is to be more open to other people's . You might have no interest in what your peers are doing, but be accepting of who they are and try to enjoy their company. They'll in turn start to appreciate yours. So, say positive things to others and think positive thoughts about yourself.
    I also think you should get some professional help with social anxiety. It's a manageable issue.

    Jan 27
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    • ThinkBlissful
      ThinkBlissful

      First of all Thank you for replying it means a lot to me :] . I've been wanting to get professional help with my anxiety but, I'm not sure how to do that because first I have to confront my parents about it, and tell them about it. I don't like the idea of my parents knowing. I'd rather have them think I'm simply 'shy' and that it's something I'll grow out of than knowing that it is a serious problem that requires therapy. I feel as though the would taunt me about it, and lately I actually have been getting alone fine with them especially my mom I don't want to ruin that.

      Jan 27
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    • AnnaLastName
      AnnaLastName

      Think of it this way, do you want to change your social anxiety or do you want to keep it? It's very age appropriate for you to worry about what people will think about you, instead of what they should do for you (yay, you're not as old as you thin you are :). If you don't feel comfortable telling your parents, maybe there is someone else you trust, at school or in your family? No one is an expert in everything, it might ease on its own, or it might get worse. Anxiety is not any more embarrassing than a sinus infection. But it can feel like that because a lot of people think we're in charge of all our emotions, or that we should be. Whatever you decide, I hope there are adults in your life who will love you and accept you just the way you are. Also, observe your parents carefully. Your tendency to be socially anxious is not something you contracted from a stranger. Someone in your family is likely to understand what you're going through. They might have even learned how to cope with it. You will too.

      Feb 1
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