I Act Older Than My Age
I am 19 years old and I can't seem to get along with my age group, it has been like this my whole life.
I have struggled with it but always understood older people better and even then I had a hard time with some of their logic. I started to observe people and why they react to different situations. I was one of those kids that had it hard at home, abuse, welfare, being picked on all the time, no friends, no one to talk to. the only thing that I did not experience as a child was sexual abuse which I am happy about.
My age group was always crying about something small, never thankful for anything or what their parents did for them, what I hated the most was kids crying and saying they hate their parents and their life and when I tried to comfort them it was always something like "they wont let me hang out with my friend at the mall" and I'm like "that's it?"
you hate your parents and want them to die cause they don't want you to be alone?
I wasn't sure if I was ignorant or they were.
and even now I dislike my age group, I had this 21 year old friend, who had a decent house, nice christian family, had a nice job his dad gave him, he didn't want to go to school and they didn't care they loved him anyway for it, he was emo for weeks and finally told me why
he said he was upset because he got his ged and no one at the church praised him or threw a party for him, he was upset because this other guy told the church he wanted to be a pastor and he became one, they threw him a party for it.
Why would you be upset over that? honestly because of these situations it is hard not to open my mouth and when I do I just end up looking like a "know it all" but honestly there is more to life than being jealous of other people. I envy people but I never want harm to anyone, I never get upset for what they have and what I don't and it seems like at this time jealousy is a big thing in my age group.
