Sometimes It's Not Worth It...

You can't feel love without feeling hate.  You can't feel outgoing without feeling alone.  You can't experience joy without ever experiencing sorrow and pain.  Every emotion has its bad opposite and those are stronger.  The best way to never allow yourself to ever get hurt or feel so much pain is by becoming a wall.  You won't feel the good feelings, but you won't feel the pain that comes along with it either.  You're just blank and empty all the time and I believe it's better for me that way. 

When something bad happens to someone you care about, it's always better to be a wall and not even let it hurt you in the least way rather than feel the pain.  It's better to be tough or heartless than overly sensitive or sentimental or compassionate.  It's hard on you in the end.  It's easier to just go through life loveless and not caring.  Sometimes it's not worth it at all.  I know this sounds really bad, but that's just my opinion.


deadmoon deadmoon
22-25, F
3 Responses Jul 22, 2010

I appreciate the fact that you found the writing fascinating. I am not sure what you meant in your first sentence. I am going to assume that you meant that no matter how hard we try we still experience pain and can't avoid it.<br />
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As far as the grieving is concerned, I do believe that it has to do with the fact that I have had a whole slew of losses: house, job, parent going into nursing home, etc.<br />
Whatever the case, thanks for responding. God Bless:<br />
Bev

Dont you life think puts us through pain, no matter how hard you try and avoid it? <br />
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I found your writing fascinating. And no one knows whether its the right time to stop grieving trust me, i would know x

I am not sure that this (your way) is the way to go or not. At present, I am going through an excruciating breakup (he dumped me after 6 months) and I just can't seem to get my head out of the pain.<br />
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I have been in love before but certainly not like this. I have been crying for months.<br />
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Whatever the case, I am a firm believer that things happen for a reason. That for some reason, I was meant to meet this guy.<br />
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Right now, however the pain is excruciating and I can't seem to stop the grieving so you might have the right idea.<br />
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Good luck. God bless.