I Want More Children
I want more children but it isn't logical. it isn't strategically financially realistic. But I still want more. I feel I was supposed to have 6 children. We stopped at 4. Some of our children has disabilities and we can barely feed the ones we have. It is selfish to want more children. But I feel incomplete. My husband even had a vasectomy because I couldn't bring myself to commit sugically to no more children.
I want to adopt but I know any logical person wouldn't give us more children right now. I know my life is to have the means to care for as many children as are sent our way.
I'm on pause waiting for the rest of our children.