I Adultery
I don't have many vices: I don't smoke, only drink moderately, I don't take drugs but my vice is women. I can't resist a gorgeous woman. I've been married for nearly twenty years and have had several affairs and numerous one-offs.
The first time was a few years after we married. I was very attracted to a work colleague and met her one night when my wife was away. We snogged a lot and went back to her place where some intimacy happened (not full sex). I was mad about her but she didn't feel the same and refused to see me. Nothing happened for a long time after that; sex with my wife fizzled out as I stopped finding her attractive. We went to Relate for sex counselling and I told the therapist I didn't find my wife attractive. He said that nothing could be done and that my marriage would end within a few years.
Nine years after we married, I met an old (married) flame and we began an affair which lasted four years. Her husband knew and tolerated it. It wasn't the sex so much as the emotional intimacy that I found fulfilling. She died from cancer five years ago.
I didn't see anyone for a while until I met my second mistress online. We saw each other for a while on and off, having sex at her place then we fell in love. After eighteen months of seeing each other I left my wife and moved in with my mistress but it didn't work and I returned to my wife. That was four years ago and I've had two affairs since then and numerous one-nighters. I have no regrets but do feel guilty sometimes. I know I'll always
be an adulterer because there is a part of my marriage - intimacy - that is missing. I'm not proud of myself but I'm just a normal guy. That said, I do want my marriage to continue and I have no plans to leave my wife and live as a single man. I realise what I have done and what I am doing is wrong but I crave emotional and physical intimacy.
The first time was a few years after we married. I was very attracted to a work colleague and met her one night when my wife was away. We snogged a lot and went back to her place where some intimacy happened (not full sex). I was mad about her but she didn't feel the same and refused to see me. Nothing happened for a long time after that; sex with my wife fizzled out as I stopped finding her attractive. We went to Relate for sex counselling and I told the therapist I didn't find my wife attractive. He said that nothing could be done and that my marriage would end within a few years.
Nine years after we married, I met an old (married) flame and we began an affair which lasted four years. Her husband knew and tolerated it. It wasn't the sex so much as the emotional intimacy that I found fulfilling. She died from cancer five years ago.
I didn't see anyone for a while until I met my second mistress online. We saw each other for a while on and off, having sex at her place then we fell in love. After eighteen months of seeing each other I left my wife and moved in with my mistress but it didn't work and I returned to my wife. That was four years ago and I've had two affairs since then and numerous one-nighters. I have no regrets but do feel guilty sometimes. I know I'll always
be an adulterer because there is a part of my marriage - intimacy - that is missing. I'm not proud of myself but I'm just a normal guy. That said, I do want my marriage to continue and I have no plans to leave my wife and live as a single man. I realise what I have done and what I am doing is wrong but I crave emotional and physical intimacy.
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