Can't Give Much Today...

I'm tired I'm worn
My heart is heavy
From the work it takes
to keep on breathing
I've made mistakes
I've let my hope fail
My soul feels crushed
by the weight of this world
And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left

Let me see redemption win (chorus)
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
that's frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that's dead inside can be reborn
Cause I'm worn

I know I need to lift my eyes up
But I'm too weak
Life just won't let up
And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left


My prayers are wearing thin
Yeah, I'm worn
Even before the day begins
Yeah, I'm worn
I've lost my will to fight,
Yeah, I'm worn
So heaven come and flood my eyes


This song is by Tenth Avenue North....."Worn." It is as if I wrote it tells of where I am at....hate being here...but that is where I am ...and the first step is admitting and accepting that ...don't have much to give today....just hope everyone is having a blessed day and continue to push forward..whatever that means for u and ur situation....xoxo
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2 Responses Jan 21, 2013

It's okay to have these days just know that each day you will slowly ease away from it. You have a plan and path and you are slowly heading there. Look at you adorable children and know that you are doing what is right for you and them. You are a solid wall of strength! :) let me know if you need to vent, talk,let loose.

I just wanted to thank you for reaching out to me after reading my story. I have been through my own struggles but the one thing that I am thankful for (and believe me I feel guilty every time I articulate it) is that my husband is deceased and was deceased when I found out he was unfaithful. Maybe that makes me a horrible person, but it helps that there is no decision to be made on my part. He is gone, our marriage is over and there is no going back. I can start over with a clean slate and don't have to question my decision making. With that being said, would I bring him back in a heartbeat to give my children back their father? Of course, but again it isn't an option so I don't have to second guess anything. I have been through a divorce through my 1st marriage and I still struggle with the "what if's." We are still good friends, time and distance makes that easy to happen, but in the back of my mind I regret not giving the marriage a better chance. I think of all the heartbreak I might of avoided if I had only stayed married the first time. But then of course I think of all of the joys I would have missed out on, mainly my other children not from that marriage and I am thankful for the path I took. I guess what I am trying to say is, trust in yourself, trust that things will work out for the best and only you know what is right for you. Listen to your inner instincts and take all of the time you need to decide the best path for you and your children. Best of luck to you and please feel free to keep in touch if you ever need someone to talk to. :)