My life has lost it's meaning, it's purpose, i am lonely beyond belief, i don't want to wake up in the morning, why could you be so cruel? How could i allow one person to mean so much to me? I want to run, to get away, anywhere but here, but you are with me, and the memory of you is in my heart and in my head, i am a prisoner of my own making. I can't cry anymore, there are no more tears left, i am bereft, i have never loved someone i hated so much, nothing makes sense, i want to die but i am too much of a coward to end my life. Some good must come out of this terrible affair.