Why Do I Care?

I don't know why, but I have always cared what people thought of me. If I'm doing something, I'll stop and think if I look stupid doing it. It doesn't matter if I am having fun doing it, it just matters what I look like doing it and what people might be thinking. If they think I would look dumb doing it, I stop. I'm slowly getting to the point where I don't care what others think of me. I'm here to live my life, and not to care what everyone else thinks. The problem is I just care way to much! Even if the person doesn't matter to me, I still care what they think about me. I guess I'm afraid of being talked bad about, even if I don't know the person. Why does it matter to me? Maybe one day I just won't give a crap.

Krysta Krysta
22-25, F
2 Responses Mar 19, 2009

I am also worry most of the time what people think about me. I have a hard time walking into a room because people might be looking at me. Them where I am in the room I am afraid to go to the food table or go to meet someone cause they may looking at me. I was just thinking boy am I that vain to think that all these people are looking at me? I am not that beautiful or that ugly that everone would turn and look. Am I that vain to think that people are worried about what I am or am not, so that they may think bad about me. Wow next time I go some where I am going to have to remember am I that vain? Thanks

Yes I care what people think of me and wish I could change. It is such a waste of energy.<br />
Sounds like you are making progress. Great!