I got really close I don't know what's wrong with me. I guess it's all getting to be too much for me. I'm tired of living like this and I can't breath. Everytime the sun goes down the hole in my chest expands. When I wake up its not as big when I get out of bed. But then everything that I see is a reminder and it feels like the air is getting squeezed out of my lungs.
Kinn23 Kinn23
22-25, F
2 Responses Aug 18, 2014

WOW.....why do we try it?
even I did it once and my mom caught me with 100 sleeping pills in a glass of water that I planned to drink :-D

Oh wow...life is crazy

true.....I was like your age when I tried it....I was also involved in self mutilation :( ----I wish I was stronger back then ;)

I was extremely close as well. And I know what you mean when the sun goes down, downside is I'm usually up all night. It's an everyday, every minute struggle. I'm sorry that's the way you feel.

Yeah its getting harder to sleep and most of the time, I wake up every 30 mins to an hour. Thanks and I'm sorry you feel like this too.

I can relate, I hardly sleep at all. I'm sorry I have no "words of wisdom" since I'm stuck in the same circle I have been in for years. But, something, anything, makes me want to get through that day.

Its okay, I understand what you mean, its like trying to find color in a grey world but more complex.

When your heart just pounds with its unless beating, and you just want to end its misery like when you see a wounded animal and put it out of its misery.

Hang in there. I have been through all you are describing, but do what you need to do to get through it, love yourself, things do get better. I know that probably sounds like a platitude but it's true. I have spent a lot of my life feeling worthless, but now I know the value I have as a human being, I hope you do. x

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