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I Almost Drowned

My Brother God Rest His Soul

By: gypsyblu
Written on July 18th, 2011
my story is ....... one of my 6 brothers died in a lake ( drowned ) he was only 9 years old....very sad ..


when they brought his body out of the water it was black and swollen, 4 times bigger then its normal size, his beauitful snow white hair   ( tow headed as they say in the south) tossed in the wind as the diver carried his body from the lake.... my brother and I are the white blonde haired children out of 8....the rest are have dish  water blonde or brn haired one with brown or green eyes. 
ill never for get!  that incident has followed me all my life, i was only 15 when it happened .... odd thing is, my child was born on the same date, ( not year)  my brother past on...> may 28 

bitter sweet  it is ..........

when he past on, a piece of me died with him,  ill never be able to be the same! NEVER!   I am afraid of losing my only child ..... my heart has harden, so sad.......
By: gypsyblu
Age: 41-45 , Female
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25 responses
  • kyross
    kyross

    is your son a reincarnation of your brother? just a thought. he may still be with you through your son.

    Jan 14
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    • gypsyblu
      gypsyblu

      no my son is half Spanish, his hair and eye color are different than my brother, my son has hazels eyes with blk hair my brother had white blonde hair, with dark blue eyes.

      my brother and I look a lot alike, we are the light ones in our family...

      yes, I agree... my brother may still be with me through my son............
      I was like a second mom to my brother who past on

      Apr 14
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  • AK76girl
    AK76girl

    My brother died on May 28th, 2010 in a pond in AK, the same day as my dad's birthday. What an extraordinary coincidence.

    Nov 6, 2012
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    • gypsyblu
      gypsyblu

      OMG GAVE ME CHILLS TO READ THIS ............... (((HuGS)))

      Jan 14
      1 like
  • milkynips
    milkynips

    I just saw a production of Rabbit Hole, in which a young boy dies in an accident. Your story reminds me of the lines about how it gets easier over time, but you never forget. It was that way for my mom when her younger brother died many years ago. I lived with fear that my son would die until he got past that age. Superstition is an awful thing. I still worry about my children, but that sort of irrational fear is gone.



    Take care, and enjoy your child without feeling fear.

    May 15, 2012
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    • gypsyblu
      gypsyblu

      milk thank you... for u rkind words another movie is " i dreamed of africa" true story.... a young boy gets bit by snake and he dies and his mother finds him.... it is the sadest story ever, i cried and sob ... could not breath...but it is a good movie, but so ver y sad, (((hugs)))

      May 16, 2012
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  • WordHustler1995
    WordHustler1995

    So sorry for your loss xxx stay strong <3333

    May 13, 2012
    3 likes
  • msfeminist
    msfeminist

    Thank you for sharing your tragic story. Heartbreak and loss are almost as common as love and connection. We need the later first, and may you, til the last, be left with love and connection.

    May 12, 2012
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    • gypsyblu
      gypsyblu

      thank you for your kind words ms (((hugs)))

      May 12, 2012
      1 like
  • gypsyblu
    gypsyblu

    i had plans to vist my brothers grave and to see my father ( who is still living) in florida, but the hotels are way pricey this time of year... this time of year florida is way over priced



    the cheap ones are full of rift raft, alone traveling female as my self, i perfer to stay at a hotel with the high end rift rafts lol

    May 6, 2012
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  • RoomwithaView
    RoomwithaView

    Dear Gypsyblu,



    What a terrible story! If you ever need someone to talk to, just contact me.



    I have five brothers. One is missing and missed. So we share something in common.



    With my love,

    Room

    May 6, 2012
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    • gypsyblu
      gypsyblu

      room thanks so much..may is the month he past on.... i just looked up his burial place to see if i could see pics of his grave .....another brother of mine past on in fall of 2010......... all my younger siblings are passing on ... another brother is sick with a bad heartso i expect him to no tlast to long ....., his life style ( drugs drinking, living in the streets)

      May 6, 2012
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    • gypsyblu
      gypsyblu

      room im sorry abut ur brother missing.... (((hugs)))

      May 6, 2012
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    • DenteAvvelenato
      DenteAvvelenato

      Missing and missed. My heart breaks for this. There is nothing worse than not knowing, there is no closure...missing is sort of this endless hope and at the same time endless fear... its torture in that way. To know even if it is the worst outcome offers a relief from the sort of helpless pull of unending hope and fear.

      May 6, 2012
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    • DenteAvvelenato
      DenteAvvelenato

      Isn't that sort of the horror of life and love... that everyone you know or love will leave you or be left by you.

      My thoughts are with you and my hopes for a longer than expected quality life are sent out to your brother.

      May 6, 2012
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    • aniowagirl
      aniowagirl

      all of my family is gone and only i remain.so many of the people i have known and been close to are also gone on.I wonder why some times why it is that i remain after allthe others are gone.

      May 6, 2012
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    • gypsyblu
      gypsyblu

      girl, i understand what ur saying... there is a movie by stephen king ( i for get the name... where the guy never ages and everyone his age, has past on and he was left wondering why he was left to live on ...

      May 6, 2012
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    • RoomwithaView
      RoomwithaView

      Thanks gypsyblu!

      May 7, 2012
      1 like
    • RoomwithaView
      RoomwithaView

      Dear aniowagirl,
      That's a pity! But at least, and wonderfully, you are alive :-)
      Best,

      Room

      May 7, 2012
      1 like
    • RoomwithaView
      RoomwithaView

      Dear DenteAvvelenato, Thank you for your thoughts! It's interesting that you mentioned 'quality of life', something I often think about him. What happened to him, and the next door neighbor kid, and countless others, was a result of patriarchy, and the weak women who are a result of, or sadly, attracted to it. The ranks of the missing are quite large. Best, Room

      May 7, 2012
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    • RoomwithaView
      RoomwithaView

      Dear aniowagirl,
      That's a pity! But at least and wonderfully, you are alive :-)
      Best,
      Room

      May 7, 2012
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  • aniowagirl
    aniowagirl

    i have been there and i know how you must feel.

    i have been married and lost three of my beloved partners.

    two with heart attacks and one with cancer.i will not

    dwell upon the grief and depression and the feelins of

    lonliness.suffice to say i reach out to you and would

    comfort you and hold you close as a sister would do.

    May 5, 2012
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    • gypsyblu
      gypsyblu

      girl thanks for the sister love (((hugs)))

      May 6, 2012
      1 like
  • gypsyblu
    gypsyblu

    Denta thank you for the love (((hugs)))

    Apr 23, 2012
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  • DenteAvvelenato
    DenteAvvelenato

    Gypsy this is heartbreaking and I've suffered loss so I won't insult you with sympathetic words that do your heart and suffering no justice.



    Just know I love you and ache for your loss. Your heartbreak is yours alone but those of us who know you wish we could help you carry that burden.

    Apr 18, 2012
    2 likes