Feeling Like Killing Someone

Okay so my best friend since i was 4 at the start of last year has dogged me hard for one of my other friends.

Me and my friend were the best of friends he would always ring me and id always ring him.. we would do all the usual crap together: playing sports hanging out etc.. He was a brother to me...

But i went away for the whole summer break and somewhere in that time he just ditched me for the other guy...

Now when i go to school he never talks to me... always to the other guy who used to be my friend but now he is just that guy... after a whole year of it i just saw it as some sort of maturity detatchment that was just something that wouldnt last....

Fast forward to 2010... He still never talks to me.. when ever im around him he seems in a pissed off mood but whenever the other guy turns up he just springs to life.. I know my story is soppy.. but it just sucks atm... it really killed it for me when the planned our skoolies trip around me just so i wouldnt be invited... ive tried fixing things up by talking but my friend always denies it....

So Now as much as i wanna kill my friends i just couldnt do that... But there are a group of people a year below me that love to pick on me... Now im not small... i go to the gym so i could bash them easy... Thats my problem.. i get so angry i can picture myself bashing the main ******* and just not stopping.. so many times ive just had to go home because im so close to snappping... Funny thing is that i want to snap.. i need to rid of this negative energy.. i need to horribly injure someone with my own fists and feet so that i can get rid of this constant hate im carrying around... But if i cant afford any criminal records.. because im joining the army at the end of this year... Ive tried taking my anger out at the gym but it just doesnt work... can someone help me here.. because deep down i want to kill someone but on the top i know its wrong...

nick17692 nick17692
18-21, M
Mar 12, 2010