Abnormally Uglyi have felt ugly since i was 13.i have a big face on a short petite body.i am not very short but actually my legs are short.i look abnormal.i have always been made fun of by my relatives and friends. it was not a big issue for me when i was in school . i always knew that i am ugly but i was stupid coz i thought that i''ll do good in studies and that looks are not so important in life.but my life became like hell when i went to college. once we were going to college by our college van. one girl who used to talk a lot she pointed toward me and said hey look at you. your face is so big. oh my God it is too big. everyone started looking at me and i wanted to cry but i did not i just kept staring at that girl. then she laughed and said hey c'mon i was just joking look at mine face she holded her small and gogeous face see mine is big too so big isn;t it? i wonder why did she need to say that when i already knew that and everyone knew that.. i cried alot.this is just one incident. i had no one to share all this with. i knew my parents won't understand me. i had no friends. i was depressed but i did not know that i was. i used to spend most of my time crying . i changed my college. but i was stupid . things were not going to change by changing places. i have to carry my ugly face with me everywhere. i had a good friend in new college but she left after first year. i got a new friend. i did not approach her for friendship i could not dare. it was she. it broke me when i heard her talking about me at my back. she was laughing at me. she was my last friend in life . here are lots of similar incidents. somehow i completed my college. now i stay at home. i never leave home except when i need to go to my doctors.
no one has ever liked me and no one would ever like me in future..no one wants to talk to me. eyes of the people staring at me tell me that i don't deserve to be alive.i have to spend my life alone .life is so scary! only relaxation is that it will end one day Thinking about death gives peace to my mind.i do believe in karmas. i got the life i deserve.i can't complain to God.
uglygirl2 22-25, F 11 Responses 3 Aug 11, 2011