I Too, Have Noticed This Pattern In My Life

I have began to realize that ever since my second divorce (yep, I sure can pick 'em) that I have fallen for two men that are unavailable to me.

A few years ago, it was a much, much older man. He was single, no kids, but he was in his 50s while I was 27. I have no idea why I developed such a crush on him. Nothing ever happened, although I could tell he was upset when I announced that I was moving away (I had only lived there about a year). Shortly after I moved away from that small town, I forgot about him. So distance and no contact really do help in severing the ties.

Now, it is a priest that I have feelings for. Only problem is that he is the priest of the parish I attend, and switching parishes would mean that I would have to pull my kids out of that Catholic school and they would have to switch schools. And they really like their school (I do too). I don't want to upset my kids' lives just because I have these feelings. I have never acted on them, and I don't plan to (after all, he is a priest, that is that).

I am realizing though, that these crushes are symptoms of something else. Perhaps after being burned emotionally after my two divorces, I only want to chase after men that I know no relationship is possible. Who knows? At least I am recognizing this though, and am trying to use it as a way to discover more about myself.
sweetie8403 sweetie8403
31-35, F
1 Response Jul 3, 2013

Hahaa ur so like me.im 19 and I like people who are in their 30's and 40's. And I have fallen for a priest too.