I Always Feel Not Good Enough
If I Could Cancel Every Appointment For The Next Month, Still Nothing Would Get Done
By:
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Written on February 14th, 2013
I'm NEVER good enough for anyone. Whether they think so or I do I don't care but all I want is to feel like I'm succeeding in SOMETHING. It's not like I'm terrible at everything, I'm good at some things. But good isn't good enough. My grades are good, but they could he better. Social skills? What are those? Appearance? You'll be lucky if I make one.
My guidance counselor says I put too much pressure on myself, and it leaves me tired, and overly aware. She says I should learn to see when good is good enough. But is it ever? It never has been at my house. At my house you.do your best and if you failed. YOU FAILED. Good never was acceptable, either you excelled or you failed. You don't get re-do's or second chances. What you get.is what you get and there is.no fixing it.
I think maybe it's not really like this. Like maybe I made it all up? It's my way of coping with something I've forgotten? I don't know, but exceeding is not as good as perfection.
My guidance counselor says I put too much pressure on myself, and it leaves me tired, and overly aware. She says I should learn to see when good is good enough. But is it ever? It never has been at my house. At my house you.do your best and if you failed. YOU FAILED. Good never was acceptable, either you excelled or you failed. You don't get re-do's or second chances. What you get.is what you get and there is.no fixing it.
I think maybe it's not really like this. Like maybe I made it all up? It's my way of coping with something I've forgotten? I don't know, but exceeding is not as good as perfection.
By:
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Age:
26-30
