Dreadfully Tired And Sore

its an effort to do most things ...

I feel tired all the time, low energy and so down right unhappy and depressed

I feel headaches all the time, neck cramps and pain

joint pain, today I came home and just had a little cry 

I feel like something is wrong with me.... 

something is not right ... I feel ill in the stomach a lot lately, depressed. tearful but unable to cry... 

I really do want to end my life. it is a stupid life.

I don't feel well so I made an appointment to see my doctor again.

I just know something is wrong ... the headaches and aches are too much at the moment

the stress over money and work and everything is too late now

I am an old bugger... no one wants an old ugly dog who is fat and tired all the time and depressing company.


I am trying to improve my life bit by bit but its so slow.


I am angry at the world for not giving me the things I needed when I was younger... like I seen my sister getting 

she may have got through shock treatment but she had a beautiful wedding and david was the perfect guy back in the 90s

I wanted a guy like that who was into enviroment and academic and young and vibrant 

she had a beautiful baby ... and it was not enough ... all the guys were going to her and she kept palming her rejects onto me

her spastics and her weirdos

I wanted to meet a nice single tall thin young guy back when I was young and a virgin and had more going for me

why did the world poop in my face?  what did I do to anyone that bad...?  I was an ok kid... I never got thugging up kids at school

or drugging grannies or giving people trouble.... 

I never got there murdering people or doing drug deals 


I was basically a good kid most of my teens etc... I think 1 or 2 neighbor fights my whole time ... when I was like 5 or 7 I had a fight with Kathleen over a toy  or Tonya because she lied telling people I gave her bills tablets when I didn't.  its not like I put bruises on her or made her bleed or break a bone etc. and if I remember rightly Kathleen could give a good punch too a few times she hit me over toys.


I feel just so lacking in energy ... I am so pissed off at the world ... I am pissed off at men for not giving me the love I needed when I was a teen and in my twenties .... they should have cared ... they should have asked me out for a date ... they should have put in more effort for me... 
guys at college should have treated me right and asked me out with friends. they should have wanted to know me... guys like the drama guy I met ... 
and why didn't they want to know me???? what was so ugly about me???? 

why can't people get off their ar se and deliver what is expected of them at the apropriate times? 

why do women of 60 and 70 what to be out roooting the teen boys and stealing young men from nice young women

you don't know what its like to be out and out ignored like you are not there ... you don't know what it feels like to be rejected by everybody 

you don't know what it feels like to be raped by a fat ugly married reject that the wife can't get off her ar se and fu ck so he won't look else where anyway

I mean the 6itch could have got off her ar se and got on the ship herself .... what the fff is wrong with that dog?

the navy ough to get their act together ... and stop this non-sense ... why should a virgin be forced to have to entertain sleazy old farts when we should be out meeting hot young studs who are single and gorgeous.... i made it clear to everyone I wanted a hot clever academic lawyer doctor type who was drop dead gorgeous tall and slick and suave etc... I made that clear to people !!!!!!! I AM MAKING IT MORE CLEAR AGAIN NOW.

leigh morris deserved a bullet in her head ... that spastic dog ... should have been looking out for safety and security of the girls .. that is her job. and you get it right the first time leigh... old sl ut bag... you ugly blackheaded mole... just cuz your dirty old man dumbed you for someone else did not give you the right to take it out on me old girl

lets have it out old bag ... you need a kick up your ar se... and i hope a ron poacher out their slams your face throw a brick wall old girl

i hate old dogs like you who get in the way of young women and get them raped just to get your jollies... your a mongrel old bag you are... 








czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
36-40, F
1 Response May 8, 2012

I MADE IT CLEAR I WANTED TO GET MARRIED AND HAVE A BABY. <br />
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I MADE IT CLEAR I WANTED TO HAVE MY EDUCATION UNDER CONTROL<br />
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BUT OF COURSE THE POOOPTER HAD TO WRECK ALL THAT OUT OF JEALOUSY.... <br />
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JUST CUZ THAT DOG CAN'T GET IT UP ENOUGH WITH HER OLD MAN WAS NOT MY FAULT.. SHE HAD A HUSBAND .... WHO WAS RICH AND CLEVER WHAT MORE DID SHE WANT... THE DOG WANTS EVERY BIT OF YOUNG JE RK-OFF CO CK IN TOWN... INSATIABLE SEXUAL DESIRES THAT WOMAN HAS... NEXT SHE WILL BE SHAGGING YOUNG TEENS IN CAR PARKS OR IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STREET BOARD DAYLIGHT .... THE WOMAN HAS A PROBLEM... SUE AND ELIZABETH AND LOUISE WERE THE SAME... SEXUALLY UNCONTROLLABLE WOMEN WHO WANT THE TOYBOYS.