I Have Been Getting Better.

I think my worst flaw was that I trusted in people so much.  I had so much faith in people, no matter what they'd done to me.

When someone told me that they were going to take me some place or buy me something I really wanted, I'd get so excited and wait.  Then, just like that, it wouldn't happen and I'd be left let down.  I put my whole heart into stuff, that included having faith and believing that these promises would come true.

Now, I've been doing so much better.  But sometimes I do let my guard down, and of course, I get let down.  My dad called me a couple weeks ago and invited me to go to Seattle with him.  He never came to pick me up, never called to cancel.  I had my bags packed too.  I was looking forward to the whole thing.

Now I have decided, I don't care what anyone says to me, I won't believe it til I see it.

urbrandofheroin urbrandofheroin
22-25, F
7 Responses Mar 24, 2009

From a universal standpoint, your words and thoughts are the reason people continue to let you down in your experience. Unconsciously you are expecting them to, so they do. <br />
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You must change your mindset and tell yourself "other people are going to do what ever it is they are going to do. I am not going to put my hopes on anybody for anything. What happens will simply happen." <br />
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Over time, your mind will stop judging others for letting you down. You'll accept what happens without judging it. If your dad shows up, he does...If he doesn't that's ok too. Don't let it get you down or form opinions about others. You'll find over time that people will react differently. A terrific book to read if you have time is called "Every Word Has Power" by Yvonne Oswald. Sending my best to you!

My dad has done nothing but break promises to me my whole life. When I was a baby he bought me stocks and bonds and always told me that I would never have to worry about paying for college or getting my first car because that money would be more then enough.<br />
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He ended up getting on drugs and spending all of my money!

I know I can count on you =D<br />
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I just don't know the sense in people making promises that they know they can't keep. It hurts people, that's why I don't do it.

Apparently alot of people do =[

Some people make promises they can't keep.

I just have had very bad luck with people proving themselves untrustworthy. I have hope, in things that I can do for myself, like becoming successful and things like that.<br />
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But I don't have hope in people when they say, "We'll totally go there next week!" Or whatever else.

That's a sad way to go through life. Never being able to have any hope... Never... Not even a bit? What's the point, then? To life, I mean. <br />
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As pessimistic as I am, I know sometimes it's ok to have some hope.